I feel a need to explain myself to you. As I said way long ago, my boss was in a bad car accident in June. He nearly died and suffered many small strokes during his recovery. He is still socially difficult (he doesn’t really interact well) and I don’t think he is capable of reading and comprehending. He has recovered the math skills for the most part, but actual understanding and analysis is probably gone forever. He lost his license and, to be honest, the only goal he has now is to regain his driver’s license. None of us think this will happen. We are praying it doesn’t. He was dangerous before the accident. He has gone as far as he can go in rehab, so now he comes into the office and we babysit him. Added stress when I’m trying to accomplish something, but he is also my friend so I need to be patient.
I have a Mom who has had small strokes and I am her primary caregiver. She has had a small failing this summer. Added stress. I need to be patient with her because I love her and she needs it, too.
Now, we have the added problem of a very young co-worker (age 36) who is suffering from liver disease and gastritis and heaven only knows what else. She is a sweet and kind soul. She would give you all of her money and have none for herself. She is self-destructive. And, I fear, she is in terrible trouble. We have lost her due to her health problems which, so far, have gone unabated. All her warning signs were ignored. All we can hope is that she can get the help she needs, and most of all, accept that help.
The economy and job losses have affected me although I know that I can do no more than I am doing now.
I have been struggling to find a place of peace in my heart and it has been mightily difficult for me. An onslaught of stresses and changes and I can’t fix any of it. This, my dears, is why I have been short and uninteresting, and for that I am sorry. I am getting there because I can actually tell you what has been going on. For me, that is a very good sign. I tend to let it roll around inside my heart and head until it makes sense or I can accept it. A coping mechanism that works for me. I have been knitting Christmassy stuff. I can’t show it because it would ruin it and that can’t happen. I’m slow as it is and if I show it and ruin it then I’d have to knit something else and I won’t make it in time. You know that’s true! Besides, I don’t have any pictures because I’m still on the laptop.
And, lest you worry about me and think I’m upset (I’m past that now. You can tell cause I can write about it;-), I’m leaving you with a song that I have to crank in the car and is causing mid-life deafness in me……..how about Jethro Tull and “Locamotive Breath”. (lordy, I love me some perversion). Did I just say that?
Have a great one!!!!!