I did it. I really did it. I was sick to my stomach and my hands shook, but I made it through my first public speaking event. Most everyone was very sweet. It is done. Now, I can get up and not worry about vomiting, falling down, spitting or any of the other worries you have when you have not conquered that fear. Thank you all for your encouragement and advise. It was all taken to heart and used. Believe you me.
Now. I need next weekend to be less stressful or full of running. I spent a large portion of the weekend behind the wheel. Oh, sure. The errands needed to be run, but for criminy sakes. I needed to get the oil changed and tires rotated. I also needed groceries and stuff. I needed to go to the bank. I got to go to my BB’s and BSIL’s house for dinner Saturday night. We have so much fun together. I cannot tell you how much fun we have. We eat well, drink and enjoy each other. I have noticed my BB has opened up more. He is willing to talk about his job and the frustrations and joys. He is a teacher. RANT ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a maligned and abused group of people. He teaches high school English, creative writing and, when he can, Shakespeare. Since when are teachers responsible for how your kids turn out? WTF? My parents NEVER took our side in an argument with a teacher. We were wrong. Sure, we usually were. But, my parents sent our teachers a message that they trusted their judgment and would support them in discipline. Do parents do that anymore? I know there are a lot of bad people in the world, but I think we’re doing everyone a disservice when we dismiss the education and knowledge of a professional for the word of our child. As Bill Cosby said, “Children lie!” END OF RANT.
I hope you had a wonderful weekend, too. I think maybe spring is coming someday. We sat outside for an hour on Saturday. It was 51. Think we’re desperate? We are. I was out on the deck with my puppers and we enjoyed the sunshine and the melting snow. He was eating it and snuffing into it as it melted in the warm sun. Then, he came on the deck with me and laid down and put his face up to the sun. I thought to myself what a way to live. In the moment! The wildlife in the back yard are very active. We have birdsong before dawn. The sun sets later every night. What we don’t have is much sun. This has been one of the darkest and most difficult winters I have known in a very long time. Mom would have had so much trouble with it this year. We had 3 weeks of fog and damp and, then, bitter cold and snow and ice and gray skies for another 8 weeks. Although I miss her, I am so grateful she is not here to deal with the darkness this winter. Last winter was so difficult for her.
I did not knit much this weekend. I read the last Percy Jackson book (I am so juvenile) “The Last Olympian” after I picked it up at my library, and folded clean clothes. I waited two weeks and, boy oh boy, did I have a bunch of clothes and towels and stuff to fold.
This is my library. I know it’s hard to tell what it is from here, but trust me. This is MY library. I also made food for the puppers. One pound raw lean ground beef, a pound of raw chicken livers, 2 cups of cooked brown rice, one can of French cut green beans and a can of carrots. Mix is all together and it looks like this:
The red thing is a spoon. It doesn’t look all that bad, but trust me, it stinks beyond words. It is truly a barf diet.
So, what else do I have to show you? How’s about a first taste of spring? This is my Snowdrop. A tiny white flower that is the first bulb to bloom in the spring (in my yard).
Have a fabulous Monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!